everything has it's purpose

so last night.. or morning...i'm not sure. i sat contemplating my future and i came to the conclusion. Whenever i don;t want to do something i use the excuse "How is this going to help me in my future. Why should i waste my brain power doing this" but i've come to the realization that no matter what you are doing.. no matter how big or how small, it shapes the future that you will one day be living ...so take each step seriously no matter how insignificant it seems.. from the snacks you eat and the time you go to bed to what music you listen to and who you put your trust in and who can put their trust in you

You Know You're A poor university student When...

You have a bazillion pairs of shoes... but still looking for that rent
Your laptop is the most expensive thing you own...even more than you're car
If you loose you're cell phone...you're practically dead
You have a library book that you use all the time... and you've renwed it more that 4 times
You're bed sucks
Real vegetables and fruits get you excited

You have a bazillion pairs of shoes... but still looking for that rent

When you call you're parents ... they assume you want money

When you go home for the weekend... your luggage includes laundry from the last time you visited home for the weekend

you write your student number more than you're phone number... sometimes

you hate winter more than the average person

you know someone who lives on every street around  your university

Your home page is your universtiy home page

Complications of Life

 has your heart ever been broken by accident
 i mean the culprit is completely oblivious to the situation
but over and over again whenever you see them you realize that
your dreams will never come true.. well at least concerning them
the little things they say
the little things they say to someone else
you almost wish they would be mean
                                                  evil
                                                    inconsiderate
to you so you would have a reason to hate them
 but then you come to the realization that they don't know how you feel
so they can't help doing what they do

you realize it was all a fantasy all the little signs you thought you saw
the looks...
the secret touches and smiles
it was all a fantasy
ohhh life, why is it so complicated

i wish there was just that one person that you were to fall in love with no complicated figuring out looks and touches and motives.
i just wish everyone could wear they're feelings on their forehead
       there would be less heartbreak
       less confusion
       less misinterpreted gestures
       less wishing things were different
       less secret tears
Why oh why is life so complicated?
Someone tell me please

    

absentee blogger

Sooooo it's been a while im going to start posting on here more often reviewing some new music and putting up some poetry etc. Aaaaaannnnnd.. im gunna finally update the background and junk so its going to be all fun and everything... so my blog peeps.... though you are few and far between :)... gnite and syonara

Friends

Friends

sometimes i really wonder what those are

i thought i made friends easily but i've realized that

they weren't friends

just people who i was always around

i mean friends do certain things

- they leave the past as... the past

- they don't try to hurt you

-they realize that you will always be YOURSELF

-and remind you that being yourself is NOT a bad thing

I also realized

to have good friends.......

you have to be a good friend...i guess i need to practice that

recession

wow the recession has been hitting me HARD... trying to find a job in this economy is trying .... right now all i can do is trust in God and hopefully he will work it out. I was thinking seriously about it and i was wondering whether God was trying to teach me a lesson in materialism. I realized whenever i thought of getting a job an having money i thought about the things i wanted... I realised that i need the money for more than just trinkets and clothes i need this to have independence and move forward in my life. As long as i trust in God he will work it out. :)

Just thinking

Wow.. I was just reading over some of my eariler poems and i realised a lot has changed. I realised that small insigificant things change the way you think act, and live your life. Today i was reading a book someone gave to me.It was basically about the emporement of females. after reading the first few pages i couldn't go on anymore. The book was so self centered and left God out of the picture entirely. Right then i realised that as a human i am worth NOTHING at all. I have no worth . Nothing i can do by myself can siginificantly change anything. It may seem like a lot right now but at the end of it all what i do is worth nothing. When i die the world wil go on without me and the things i do that make me feel important become obsolete. I don't beleive that you should give up on life at this point of realistation but now my trust in god is so much more secure because i know with hi the things i do and accomplish have true meaning. Not just in this earthly life but forever because it is not only building my chrachter it is helping others to do the same also. When Jesus returns the only thing we wil have to take with us is our charachter.

Name of the game

Size nine feet

Size 11 jeans

Curves that start in my hair and just missed my feet

Signs of a strong woman that won’t take defeat

Hands for art , work and play

They caress a piano and won’t hesitate to hold

The burdens of the young the weak and the old

I’m told by the world that’s not good enough

I must be 5’4 and my hair can’t hold a puff

Told by the world how I must conform

Yes things are changing but you can still read

The story told by the way it is so easy to follow

The trends and the fashions, we’re stuck in a shadow

We want to be different but still stay the same

Acceptance and change is the name of the game

it's been a while

Well.. It's beean a while and i haven't been keeping up with my new year's resolution to post once a week but from now on i will... stay tuned for some new poetry on the way